The days are getting longer here in Winnipeg and yet I have been feeling kind of depressed. I was sitting at the bus on the way home and I was getting misty eyed again. It’s not a new feeling. How many times have I sat at the bus and tears would just roll down my cheeks. I don’t even know if people have noticed.
The man and I have talked about changes, but it seems to me that nothing’s changed that much. I should really write about what happened two months ago so that you can make sense of all of this blabbing. It’s just that I always feel so tired, working up to ten hours a day. That, and the kids are always on the computers. And we have two now.
I haven’t gone to an Al-Anon meeting yet. I already want to. But it is just so frigging cold out there – down to minus 40 windchill at times. And I don’t want to freeze my butt out there waiting for the bus. I have to take two buses to get there and also two to get home. And since the meeting’s at night and the buses don’t run that often, I might have to wait for up to half an hour or longer for my connecting bus. I just need to talk to someone who can relate. I don’t even know how I’d react to these meetings. Would it help me feel better about myself? Or would it just make me feel more depressed hearing stories that are similar to mine?
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March 8, 2008 at 11:50 am
Wil
Logistics of going do sound difficult. Why not go there and if you find that the meetings are potentially helpful, maybe there’s someone there who you can carpool with?
March 9, 2008 at 10:31 pm
verns
Hmmm it really depends on your state of mind I guess. There are times that I prefer to be with cheerful people when I’m feeling down. But honestly, more often than not, I prefer to be with people who feels the same or who are also having some tough times. I don’t know if that’s healthy or not but when reality tells you that a lot of people out there is in a more difficult situation, the burden becomes less. Please find someone you can talk to Niceheart. You need to let it out. This I know is true, it’s not wise to bottle it all up. It will eat you from the inside and it’s not good for your health.
God Bless and it’s okay to cry…hugs
March 10, 2008 at 7:39 pm
niceheart
Wil, I usually get shy when asking for a ride/carpool. But yeah, I’ll definitely consider that. Maybe after a few meetings, I won’t be as shy anymore.
March 10, 2008 at 7:44 pm
niceheart
Verns, you are just so sweet. And I’m not saying that Wil is not.
I know that it’s not good to keep it all inside. That’s the reason I want to go to the meetings. Tonight is actually not too bad outside, but the kids needed me at home. My youngest needed help with homework. I don’t seem to run out of excuses eh? I already told them that I’m going to this meeting next Monday.